Friday, November 7  

It's too much..

It's just too much, i can't do it, i'm not a journalist, i'm not a detective, i'm not a psychic, there's just way too much stuff out there, and everything has another side.. i think i'm going horizontally, waste of time, out instead of in, but i'm curious, but there's no point, self discovery.. umm.. there's the harmonic concordance / convergence this saturday & a worldwide lunar eclipse, is that dissinformation? False hopes shattered, or true hopes fulfilled? Is anything even real?

Stewart Swerdslow is a con artist? Or is that dissinformation? Montauk isn't real.. or too real? if i knew, would it matter? i can't change it, or am i playing right into the game.. oh man... i need to take some time off...
Is ignorance bliss? what difference does it make to know or to not know? protection? can something you're not aware of harm you? i think so, but what if i can't affect it, whatever doesn't kill us can only make us stronger? Are we an ostrich with it's head in the sand? or an ostrich too smart to add energy to their games.. if thought creates what we focus on, then can it create alternate realities/dimensions if we focus on them? do they exist now? does it matter? Probably not.. but maybe, but maybe not....

Is complacency bad? or good? peace, love and light is unbalanced. Too boring. So we want balance yeah? We? Is there a We? Is it all dependant on me or on the mass, it's both right? I affect the mass.. is there a critical mass? Have we reached it? or are we being told that we have so that we don't? What if the monarchy really are a bunch of evil reptiles? That run the planet? Are movies hints? is "V" real? Why am i even thinking about these things? Why can't i stop? What is the significance of things? Is a little thing such as a ladybug or a rainbow significant? or does it only carry the significance we attach to it? or is it the significane that we can perceive or be aware of at the time that is real? is there a cosmic significance or purpose? why is it that when i get close to something i think is right or comfortable with what i know, something else comes and completely stuffs me up? ...

Maybe my brain is broken... it probably is.. because i always forget everything.

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Largest Solar Flare Ever Recorded

04-Nov-2003

A massive solar flare saturated X-ray detectors onboard GOES satellites for 11 minutes. The last time such a thing happened was in 2001. That flare was classified as an X22--the biggest ever. This one was even bigger. It was almost certainly the biggest flare ever recorded. "This solar flare was the largest I have ever seen" said Dr. Ernest Hildner, director of the NOAA/NASA Space Weather Center.

Does that have any significance? That the flare was aimed squarely at earth? (It was)..

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"When people choose to experience mental uncertainty, it is a choice they make to allow for their search into other realities. It is not wrong, it is just another possibility. " - Kirael

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We had a big rainbow at the front of our house yesterday, it was a complete arc and it was really pretty, my dad came over for a bit, he's going to Cambodia (what's with him and war countries?).

Maybe he'll go to Afghanistan next.

So, we had band prac and we sucked because Stixx doesn't know how sound works or how to use amps and he kept on feedbacking and sounding crap and yelling at me when i tried to fix it, he always wants it so loud, dick, now he can't smoke for 2 months cuz he's getting surgery on his nose because it's crap but i don't reckon he can keep it up, but he'll have to cuz otherwise his face will be stuffed.

I feel really hopeless right now, probably cuz i can't get any answers and i know that even if i did they wouldn't matter, so i'm quitting my job as a truth junkie/addict because i don't think i care at the moment, it's just way too much, way too deep, way too crazy and people are going to start thinking i'm insane if i keep it up. In something completely unrelated : I'm going to go see Hilltop Hoods at the Metro tonite! Sik, Aussie, Rap.

Kylie just sent me a message, it sez :

"STOP READING THE INTERNET PABLO ITS NOT HEALTHY DUDE"

I think i agree..

Ok, so i quit, if i can, i choose to quit, i'm going to start looking up websites about funny chinese signs that don't make sense and nice pictures of cats and stuff. Instead of sites like these..

QUANTUM FORCE HEADQUARTERS
INTELLIGENCE LINKS
{...Founding organizational member of the "METAVERSAL ALLIANCE of SOVEREIGN TIMEWAVES" -- M.A.S.T. ... }

I'm not crazy (that's what crazy people say) i'm just open minded and curious, but what's the point of finding out that there could be divergent timelines in space? What good, does that knowledge serve me? I might as well learn the name of all the X-Men backwards, that would probably have more value anyway!

The truth will set you free, but the search for the truth will completely fuck your brain up.

If i'm already free, do i need truth? how do i know if i'm free? How real is the Matrix? Science has validated and proven that it's real, so what do we do with that knowledge?

I should probably not put this shit up on my blog but i don't care, strength comes with being vulnerable, so here's my prayer..

"God, this is an honest, and fair request : whatever you are, whoever you are, please help me find my own truth and cruise with it... frankly i just want the band to do well and to have a fun life, i'd like to know what's REALLY going on too, but just cuz i'm curious, i'm not liking all these doom and gloom scenarios that i've been reading about, but if they're real then please help me prepare for them, also, i'd like to be in my sweet spot in life, and would appreciate it if you made it blatantly obvious what it is you want me to know if you ever want me to know something.

If you're not real, then please disregard this message. Thanks!.."

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Austin & Al don't have any money to cover Stixx's recording, and i don't want to pay it cuz i don't think i'll see that money back, so we're stuffed.

"Stixx has never paid for anything.. not the first recording not the
practices we went to. not fuel to get to the gigs. i cant help at all. stixx
will be the same till the end of time. to make money you need money we have
no money therefore we cant make money." - Austin

It's true.. *Insert big "help me please" sigh in here*.

Send your donations, care of Pablo Murdoch, 16 Melita Street, Cambridge Park, NSW, Australia 2747.

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A comment



Wow! Someone left a comment on my blog!






"Lisa", seems to think that i'm "totally twisted" (that's chickspeak for hot), and she wants me to e-mail her, and her e-mail address is.. "sweet_sugar_angel@hotmail.com".

Girls with e-mail adresses like "Sweet Sugar Angel" are usually really naughty, if you know what i mean. Cuz like, they wanna seem all sweet and innocent, but when the doors close.. SLAM! You don't come out the same..

.. she probably lives in Istanbul or something stupid... but maybe she lives in Penrith, Australia and looking for a man! :) .. i'm so stupid...

It's probably Austin.

Ok, so, yesterday was very uneventful, tho I did find out that Delta Goodrem doesn't have cancer and that it's just a stunt, you can thank our producer for that one! (The bastard also got with Penne from life support!).

Yeah, so, Kansas (Texas) and Troy got into a muck around fight but it got out of hand and then they got very serious and started hitting each others bodies and stuff and it was funny, until it wasn't, at which point it wasn't funny anymore, i said ..

"Guys, can you like, leave the room, because the tension is just too much for me.."

..to which they both said..

"Grr, snarl, grrr."

.. so i don't think that helped, because they then hit each other a bit more and then they stood there, staring at each other very seriously, and like, neither of them could back down, cuz they'd be pussies then, right? Or so it goes, but the real man, he would've just laughed afterwards, shook the other dudes hand, and said "Maaate!"...

At least they didn't hit the wall.... it seems like it's an Aussie institution that if you're angry, you punch the wall, probably cuz the walls here are made out of cardboard and it's an easy way to look tough and angry... if i was gonna smash something, i'd break the t.v. or a window, anything with glass in it really.. glass is fun to smash...

Stupid customers keep on interrupting me while I try to update my blog..

That's a bit rude of me, to say they're all stupid, but a large percentage are.. but then, I guess they don't know much about car loans, so i'm imposing my expectations on them.. at the same time, they're still idiots.. especially today.


Beautiful..


Ok, so that's it! Oh, another few things happenned yesterday, first off, i found a tattoo with a lizard in my pocket, then I went home and Troy was wearing a shirt with the same lizard on it. I also found a ladybug on my bag, and it was a really pretty one, not one of those half assed ladybugs, and on my way home, there was this girl on the train singing all the way home and she was really pretty and she just sang, i don't know whether she was crazy, or really cool. There was this dickhead fully perving on her, he had a pathetic lost puppy face on him, then he blew a kiss at her when she wasn't looking, and because she didn't respond (how would she know?!!) he pulled a face and looked at her with this full hateful look, there was also the old man perving on her and i wanted to bash them both, but I couldn't and I'm probably just as bad for perving on all 3 of them, still but.. guys are crap, but so are chicks, we're both so crap, I like the ones that admit they're crap, they're the cool ones, like me, I'm crap, that's why I'm cool.

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Mormon Mormon Mormon!
Elder Elder Elder!..




I've been spending all morning trying to figure out how to get people to come to this blogg, cuz i reckon it's better than many others and well, i want people to read it cuz otherwise what's the point!? So like, if you're reading this, then read more! and tell your friends!

So, what happenned yesterday?..

We had 2 mormons come over at the same time that Sam the token black dude came over.

So we had this big discussion about God and I got pretty worked up but not in a bad way, I tried to get one of them to read some of my material, he said he wouldn't, so i told him that next time, when he tries to get someone to read his material, they won't, and it's true.

I asked him :

"What's more important, finding the truth, or being a mormon?"

And he couldn't answer that, but then Tim Kovax came and saved his ass by saying ..

"He's found the truth and that's why he's a mormon".

Which was lucky for the mormon cuz otherwise, if he was a computer, he would've crashed.

My point is, how can they be so egotistical to claim that mormon is the only truth? It might be a path to a certain degree of truth, but there's no way anyone can claim to have "the truth" because truth is infinite, and it is personal, only YOUR truth is real to you, just like only MY truth is real to me.

I tried to convey that to them, that God is personal and we don't need a middleman such as the Mormon church to get to God. How can a person in a desserted island find God?

Then I asked, "What's the meaning of life?" and he couldn't answer that, and then I said "Love", and he couldn't top that.

As if you could, i challenge anyone reading this to give me a better answer, and i don't mean romantic love, i mean LOVE.

So he got kind of edgy and was like "Oh a happy life, where you do good things" and i'm like "Love covers that".. I said "As far as im concerned, saying you're mormon or this or that, is putting yourself under a label and in a box, what about saying: I am a human being, and I live in Love."

By the way, as far as i'm concerned, these are bullshit arguments that just waste time, because we all know that love is a good thing and the world is getting hardcore ass-raped at the moment and we need to discuss how to fix it instead of discussing if it even exists!

So anyways, that happenned, so the second hardcore theological discussion in my house this week, then we had a band prac and that's about it i think!

I was upset this morning because Stixx doesn't have the recording money and i don't think it's fair that i have paid for all the equipment that he uses plus i have to pay for his recording now too, it's like he gets to ride for free.. but then i thought, maybe that's good because if he doesn't put money in, he can't argue with us about it either. And we can control how the business side of things run without him fucking it up, but i'm still undecided.

P.S : I found a lizard in my room yesterday, I thought it interesting considering neither Allan nor I have seen a lizard anywhere around our house before, then I find one in my room.. after all this talk about reptiles...

*insert creepy music here*

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Some Trippy Shit..

Hi! Feeling allright today, tho i had a shitty morning! Maybe because i Reikid myself last night (which i don't usually do because i usually don't believe it's going to achieve anything, tho i know it's exactly that attitude that stops it from working) see, this morning i woke up and my bag was open and there was $5 missing from my wallet, and i got real pissed cuz i reckon either Stixx took it, or it was a ghost, and i find it more believeable that Stixx did, i hope he didn't however.
Because that ain't cool.

I sez to him, I sez.. "one chance only"...

If i've learnt something this year is.. "Trust no-one" and that if something sucks, or you're getting bad vibes about something, then face up to it and get rid of it, don't let people take advantage of you repeatedly in the hope that they will stop it or learn.

See, i'm not doing anyone any favors by helping them, if anything, i'm working against them, people need to help themselves, be responsible for themselves, and cut all the fucking self defeatist excuses out! *Sighhh* anyways, moving on from that topic..

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Yesterday i met a dude called "Sam" who's this black guy from N.Y..

He travels around the world and raps and shit, he was scoring from Kansas at my house when I walked in and started tripping on everyone about the fact that NASA has recently crashed their "Galileo" space probe into the orbit of Jupiter, expecting it to just burn up.
The problem with this scenario is that the Galileo is powered by plutonium and iridium among other things.
The fear was, that crashing the Galileo into Jupiter might cause it to compress so much that it will begin a nuclear chain reaction, the odds of this were very small, however the chance was there but NASA went ahead anyway.. Now this shit is showing up..



See the big motherfucker black spot in Jupiter? That's some scary shit! Here's some more pics (all with links)..






So.. they've pretty much sent this nuclear warhead into Jupiter and and now we just have to wait and watch, it could cause a never ending chain reaction and turn Jupiter into a Sun, or it could just turn Jupiter all black. I don't know, I'm no astronomer, but I know when something scares the shit out of me.. and this does.
At the same time, i can't do anything about it and i doubt it's going to affect us for a while.. But who the fuck do these people think they are?! Fucking with something as big as Jupiter is a big deal, not something you do on a whim, it could eventually fuck up the whole solar system, tho i doubt it.. but fuck, you never know now.

Sooo.. i've come home, ranting all this shit, just walked in and got right into it, and this dude is standing there, and after i was done i looked at him and said..

"Sorry man! you're probably spinning out that i've just walked in and started ranting this shit"

and he goes..

"No man, that's full on! They planned all that, the Galileo.."

and i'm like..

"What the fuck.."

and he's like..

"Have you heard of David Icke man, that's some scary shit, think of this "Queen e-Lizard-birth.."

and i went..

"HOLY FUCK!!!! I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT!!"

.. and i was!!! I really was!! I'd been walking on my way home that afternoon thinking "Queen e-lizard-birth.." and then he says it!
How's that for coincidence? or the odds that he would mention David Icke and all this really really harcdore shit that i've been thinking and talking about.. the funny thing is, he brought up so many things that i've been telling my friends for months, that they even started believing it.. I think that coincidences have a way of pointing you to the "Current" truth (truth is constant.. yet is always subject to change, and there's many types of truth anyway, it depends on persepctive, but more importantly in the "now") .. so that you know you're on the right path, and man, i've just had so many coincidences over this whole thing lately.. too bad i can't type all about it even, it's just way too much, and it's all pretty meaningless anyway, yet at the same time sooo important.. always the paradox... Anyways, his name is "Sam", which is even cooler, because for some reason i've always wanted to meet a Sam..

And now we have a token black guy! with the accent and everything!!

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Lots of partying this weekend!

Friday was Halloween, had a huge party at my place which Sophie organized and yeah, very big, around 200 people went and we all got dressed up, i had a mask that made me look like an accountant, Al & Stixx were zombies, I don't know what Austin was but it was weird, and there was heaps of chicks in really skimpy outfits!
On the left we have Fatty dressed as Silent Bob!

I was out of it most of the night! We had a smoke machine in the house and we used it a lot and yeah, Rachel didn't like the smoke, but it was probably less smoke than what she sucks down on bongs all the time! Dennis got pissed and kicked in the fence..

FUCK! I can't believe i just did that!

Kylie got me some hot chocolate and i just went to drink it but i missed my mouth and got it all over my shirt and had to go clean it but while i was drying it with the hand dryer i tried to dry the neck bit and i stuck my neck onto the metal bit of the hand dryer and burnt my neck as well.
ARGH! I hate being shit!
Anyway ive cleaned it now but i smell like chocolate.

.. Ok anyways, yeah my party was good, should do it again sometime, we played but we sucked but thats allright. Oh and i met a white husky! She followed me home on friday 31st (Halloween) on my way from work! It was like this wolf chose me, and she was soo beautiful, but a bit dirty. But she was great, hung out for a while, and then she dissappeared. Aww.



On Saturday was the famed "National Beer Day", and that was a good party too, there was this game "Bouncer" that Austin and Jeff played where they had to run at each other with big plastic balls and that was pretty funny, umm, i got drunk and was obnoxious all night, but that's what i do, im good at that, being obnoxious.
Umm.. so er.. yeah hung out with Benji and Scrotes and Simo at some points.. eww i smell like chocolate.. umm.. yeah and it was all good, there was heaps of people from Bombshell there, & there was jelly wrestling and stuff too, i got a ride home with a guy called Kurk who was friends with a chick called Stephanie who was this chick that Stixx got with.
On Sundya we just lay about all day, cleaned a bit and thats about it, and we had a band practice, that was actually really good!






For more pictures and Stories about this weekend! - Letters to God! By Steve Austin.

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