"I guess the key is to focus, something I've had trouble with my whole life, to the point where it must be pathlogical and furhter ingrained through schooling and work, Im always looking for something to do BUT the thing I should be doing, because thats what I've trained myself to do, with the aid of the institution.
This brings me to the glitch. To lose focus of the moment, and think about your problems, or yourself, distances you from reality, to then ponder why you've been distanced from reality, furhter distances you from reality. Layer upon layer until you forget where you started... and so you try to remember, addicted to finding the solution to your self created walls.
The only way to break the cycle is to operate outside the cycles rules. I.E, any advance in an anti system will still be negative, it is an inevitability. Regardless of how it is misperceived, it is a solution fabricated inside a negative rule set, so the outcome must be negative. I believe im addicted to this cycle and this is my glitch. It excarberated and became negative clear when I was on acid.
The message.. 'The world is your oyster, if only you'd focus, and let go of yourself'.. it seems clear that the only way to break the cycle is to operate out of the cycle, stop trying to find a solution, stop trying to remember the forgotten, just be in the moment and the rest will come rushing in, you've broken out...
I also believe this is a world consciousness thing.. I think we're all infected, I just happen to have seen my virus more clearly.
Its all conditioning, its all been said before and its all known, but If i could let go of the feeling that I need to achieve, and that 'something is wrong', maybe i could move forward a bit more gracefully.
Anyway, today seems to be a day of clarity and I've enjoyed typing this mail to you.
- Pablo"